At the beginning of the pandemic, I joined a virtual walking challenge. It was very therapeutic since I had been laid off. I needed to find some sort of solace after losing my father inlaw in May of 2019. Then, my father passing away in May of 2020. I felt hopeless at that time.
I challenged myself to do the virtual Camino de Santiago over 812 miles through the neighborhoods of Scranton. I walked and contemplated my life up to that point, and I started to take online poetry classes with my mentor.
Fast forward to this evening, I still write but have not participated in my WordPress blog lately. Right now, I am trying to grapple with my daughter, who is seriously ill. It’s not a statement that I wanted to reveal a few months ago. I have challenged myself again to walk the virtual Camino, I start tomorrow morning. I leave just as I left four years ago, in bewilderment and in contemplation. Through the neighborhoods that I love walking through. What will I find on this journey? What will I leave behind? What will I keep ? How I am going to handle this blow that no parent wants to see their child go through? I am contemplating these questions even more so as I am 2 days away from my 60th birthday.
Maybe I will find some answers as I walk this journey.
It is increasingly impossible to meet the demands of modern motherhood satisfactorily, and increasingly impossible for that child to function sanely in the world in which he or she finds themselves. There are increasing numbers of parents afraid of their adult children, increasing numbers of laws allowing those children to work out imaginary old grudges by locking their parents away. It’s a grim reality, and you are not alone.
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Thank you Ana
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I am so sorry that your daughter is ill. I pray for her quick recovery. Sending you loads of love and prayers Mary.
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Thank you Sadje that means a lot to me.
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Take care. ❤
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I am sorry to hear your daughter is sick and you are going through a rough patch. Hopefully the walking brings you understanding and moments of peace.
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Nicole, thank you for your kind words. It means a lot to me.
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